8 - 15 Feb 2026

 08/2/2026

7 days a week with only 1 non-working day.

Eating Chateraise, missing those crepe cakes from JB and Melaka.

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09/02/2026

Stir fried soba for myself before heading to work.

Bacon + ham + veg.  Then was often too full to take proper dinner, which was good, save money but never lose weight.

It was so cold in the club that colleague gave me a heat pack.

Put it on my neck, chest or pocket.  I couldn't believe it.

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10/02/2026

A FB friend thought I was overseas, I inside Cathay cold as f**k sia.

I was sick with cough and flu every god damn month here.

They were having fan meet.

I had invited old man to come and visit me at the club a couple of times.  He refused, but becos of this fan meeting, he came.  So if you are reading this, please do not insist that he loves me.  Trying to distort facts onto me does me a lot a lot of harm and hurt.  We are just normal friends under one roof, maintaining world peace is good for everybody, but that is not love.

So my this friend and I had mala pot for dinner.

Love the taste while he thought all mala tasted the same.

Fresh potato chips at long last.  The last time we ate was donkey years ago at Harbin.

So much fond memories of that freezing wonderland of China.

After dinner, the event lead said she waiting for someone to fold and keep the table clothes.  She wonder why nobody did it.  But in the first place nobody knew what she intended to do.

Anyway, I fold lah.  I thought it was simple but actually took me around 45mins, they were so big and heavy.  Then the event lead didn't know I can fold like that lolxx...  Already demo to her how to fold.  Part of me is more than happy to leave, another part of me feels bad to leave her, it's only this much I am able to help her at work.

The fan meet ended late enough, old man drove me home.  Kinda saved me, cos I was exhausted folding those bedspreads table clothes.  Confirm I couldn't work as a chamber mate haahaahaa...

Play with AI Gemini again, 留个念想，才能活下去。。。

JiYong arh... you will find your truth love one day...

There's nothing more I can do in life but remotely loving you and him...

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11/02/2026

Not working today cos one full timer took my shift so that he could apply for leave in lieu next Mon.

Tissue paper in washing machine, 崩溃瞬间 T__T

Travelled to HarbourFront from Paya Lebar station, wrong move.   There was some disrupted or maintenance whatever, took me forever to reach Vivo.  I was so late that old man was trying not to scold me lolxx...

After a quick dinner at Jollibee, he went to mingle with his members.  GV was just very crowded with the Gala movie premier, I found a corner at the Gold Class lounge while the main area was fully occupied by local artist.

I ordered a glass sparkling wine for myself.  After waiting for a long time, told old man to go to the bar counter to collect it, he came back with a bottle.

It was a beautiful mistake which I didn't want to correct.  Then I told him to go and take a few more glass so that we could share the bottle with his team members.  He didn't want to until I had to be slightly nasty in tone.  It was a nice gesture to treat his members as a team leader especially when I had paid for it.  But he didn't get it...

This is the way a movie night should be.

He didn't want to pay for it (cos he never like quality enjoyment), my miserable pay managed to.

Asian platter was enjoyable, S$19 I think.

Group photo with his members.

They kinda pulled me into the pic last min and I accidentally stood in the center oh gosh -__-|||

Movie's main artists greeting.

The storyline was very simple, nothing deep to ponder, a nice comedy to unwind stress.

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12/02/2026

Finally appointment to NDCS, giving me total different diagnose.

Flowers at NDCS

I didn't think the doc can be trusted:

1) he said that his computer don't reader for DCM files (X-ray files), so I showed him jpeg format, he said it's difficult to read in slices.  Even Luis was able to run and see the slices at home.  When a doc can't, it's just so wrong;

2) he never check my bites, as in how far apart are they;

Although there's one thing I agreed with him: if my jaws are misalign, I should be feeling pain.

He suggested braces which I couldn't make myself to agree with it.

I decided to seek for a 3rd opinion from a private dentist, after NDCS and JB dentist gave me 2 different diagnoses.  While I had complained how miserable my salary was, those miserable 3 months bits could be easily fully "donated" to a 3rd opinion private dentist.  连芝麻般的新水也不配拥有, so please don't advise me to count my blessings, I don't have any，没爱没钱没健康，　谢谢。

Went to Raffles Place with a impression that there were many food options.

Ended up Thai wanton noodles which I had ate so many times.

Reached Changi Airport with a few hours to kill before my baby sis land.

Stayed in Luckin, not very productive, send one resume only.

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13/02/2026

Wearing thin knitted vest, it's freezing in the club.

Took photo inside Cathay for remembrance.

Likely to move away, what are the chances of working in this building again?

My cough never really recover since the day I started with this job.  Had tomato soup though I prefer mala and some skewers.

Costed me a whopping $16, but was delicious.

Baby sis brought calories from Dubai, so good...

At the moment too broke to fly to UAE.

Old man bought a little carton of mandarin oranges in pear shape.

Too cute.

Relationship with neighbor was drifting apart, they came over gave us cookies but I wasn't around.

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14/02/2026

Photo in club.

Thankful for what this place had taught me, but leaving to save myself.

After went to Woodlands, enjoyed a bit of grocery shopping with baby sis and old man.  Body batt was dropping drastically lolxx..

Had dinner at East Treasure Chinese Restaurant.

They are famous for crocodile meat dishes, unfortunately pre-order is needed, we just walked-in and croco dishes were sold out.

Anyway, all was good, so long never eat in a chinese restaurant.

Spinach + mushroom + vegan chicken

Roast duck.

Seafood bee hoon (seafood more than bee hoon).

Pork chop, this was crazy delicious but not cheap, about S$40+

I am having a tough time, her's not easy either.  We are not able to help each other, the only thing we can do is to spend time together.

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15/02/2026

Didn't contribute any labour except wrapping a few dumplings.

Then it was a crazy feast prepared by baby sis, taste comparable to restaurant.

Vinegar trotter was so so so so so so PREFECT omg...

Super soft bouncy skin, tender till falling apart meat, mild vinegar with strong ginger, I will never get sick of this.  She have to cook when she comes back again heeheehee...

Home cooked pen cai.

Wanton with a bit of my effort.

After lunch, old man and I went Bukit Panjang.  Good CNY vibes and lively but not too crowded.

Mainly for this individual packed mini oranges.

Half of Feb was gone...

1 -7 Feb 2026

 01/02/2026

I felt very lonely, so I brought Zoa out, old man driving us to NEX.

Bought 2 sets of clothes at Underground boutique for merely $160+, then went to PRISM, bought a laundry dryer.

CNY tibit booths.

Bought 2 tubs of Mdm Ling to bring to the club, trying to accumulate minor bit of merit and make the already bad working place a bit better ba.

Awesome giant dried oysters for CNY.  Bought them myself.

He would act blur, I couldn't be bothered with him actually.  But I tried to remind myself, anything more, I will be guilty.  Everybody deserves the love, except for me...

Skechers collaborate with Demon Slayer again.

Was $129 or so, but I have enough shoes already.

Yaki Yaki Bo Teppanyaki for dinner.

The rare occasion of him getting me a decent dinner.  He close-fisted.  But at my side, a lot of times I only have non-working Sundays which I didn't want to step out of the house.

The meal was great, melt our ice a little bit.  But somehow I was still feeling lonely...

Didn't realize we order shabu beef and shabu pork, too shabu, not satisfying but still delicious.

Seabass fillet + prawns.

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02/02/2026

Work place is getting toxic:

one admin exec leaving after 2 years (the committee members were considering to lodge a police report against her, shocking story which I don't think it's appropriate to disclose);

admin assistant manager leaving (constantly drowning at work but not productive enough in boss's eyes, but that said, she was very very nice and supportive to me, no human is perfect after all); 

my partner at front desk leaving (the club did not offer him a permanent position, cos he made it known that this place is a stepping stone, also he is a back stabber, nobody said goodbye to him on his last day);

another part-time receptionist leaving (she couldn't stand this place).

5pax (including myself) leaving/left the club within the period of Jan to Feb, when there's only 7 employees in total.  The other 2 who stayed started only last year Sep.

Still, I shared cookies to colleagues and some familiar club members.

MiXue thermal flask at work.  Gift from gf lolxx...

舞狮头 slippers from TaoBao.  Wanted to wear for CNY but can't wait.  Too cute.  Darren thought it's ugly though haahaahaa...

About 2 more weeks to CNY, giving myself some auspicious earlier.

May 心想事不成 vicious cycle be over...

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03/02/2026

My front desk partner back stabbed me.  He was the one who showed my around, I changed shifts with him whenever he requested, and this was how he repaid me.  He left on the 5th, may we never cross paths ever again.

16 year old cat.  She's getting weak and old, so are we.

Came to bath my father after work.

Old man had been kind, he came for dinner then drove me home.

On the other hand he acted blur when I paid for the YTF soups, I felt petty.  When can I be rich enough not to be petty?

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05/02/2026

I confronted the back stabber.  He said he merely notify the boss on the complain email, not having and intention to backstab me.  I told him that's called back stabbing.  He said this is the way he work.  With that said I finally knew why he was being asked to leave in his previous jobs and how much his wife had suffered and wanted a divorce.   可怜之人必有可恨之处。 Mirroring myself, can somebody tell me where and what had I done wrong?   So wrong yet I don't know, so wrong that I deserve to suffer so much physical and mental pain.

The thousand dollars PRISM dryer came, the LED lights on it were so pretty.

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06/02/2026

That committee member in charge of HR told me the club decided to let me go after once my 3 months contract is complete.  I can't wait to go, I have no wish to stay either.  The more he talked, the more I felt something amiss.

The months of work didn't help my bank.  But it cushioned me for the next full time job.

The 30pax event was great.  Not much rubbish left behind.  I mingled a bit, commercial hugs here and there.

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07/02/2026

After talking to my colleague, I realized I am retarded, he is just a scumbag.  To think that I was stupid to take his words seriously: "Your work capabilities falls below expectation".  Is just crap, in where had I not meet up with expectations?   Washing of 100+ wine glasses or throwing of bags of trash?

I am leaving, even if it means that I can't get another job for another few months.

Cool weather.

The club was freezing, especially when I was all alone guarding the club myself.

Wearing Darren's SuperDry which he normally wears to school.

I wore this thick hoody all the way from Bencoolen to Tampines.  Old man asked me out to visit the PRISM outlet at Tampines to find out how to use the dryer's tray.

I must looked weird, but nobody knew I was "thawing" lolxx...

We had dinner at Legendary HK Cafe at B1 of Tampines Mall.

I had better at Plaza Sing, so this was the first and last visit.

The long beans rice rolls was something new, super smooth and soft, this was really nice after the average 黯然销魂 and pork chop bun.

That's first week of Feb.

Can't wait to get over Feb as my contract with the job agent ends at month end.  In the beginning, I thought this job was my life buoy, I really didn't expect it to sink.  As if it's unavoidable for me to go through all these, 一坑又一坑, I have no idea there are how many more 坑 ahead waiting for me.  It's already to the extend where I have to remind and tell myself to stay alive.  It also doesn't matter whether I am having depression or not, no doc can help, only money drop from the sky will help.

I have to stay alive.