28 -31 Aug 2026

28/8/2026

Old man brought me to Feng San Market for dinner.

I will take whatever he can offer, and earn whatever I want myself.

All good, we are friends.

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29/8/2026

I never seen so many people folding paper offerings at one go.  And this was only one room.

I learnt how to fold a gold ingot heehee...

Tables after tables, you name it, they had it.

After this pic a monk came to recite a 30mins prayer, my legs passed away but nobody was moving so I stood with the crowd.

I was in the pic too but hidden behind another person.

And this was only part of it.  Many were "sleeping" agents who appeared only during this festival.

Followed by fire.

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30/08/2026

Supermarket bread was too thin, almost tear apart in milk.

Not too pretty looking but taste not affected.

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31/08/2026

My blood test didn't turn out too well.  My sugar level is near red line; my liver fats also near red line.  From 62kg, my weight now is 65kg after eating 2 full meals a day for the past 2 months.

I am going to die... need to lose weight...

22 - 27 Aug 2026

22/8/2026

Old man cooked, so I washed.  If the men in the family can offer to wash, I love to cook more often.  Unfortunately it's a tradition that I have cook and do all the wash myself, alone.  I have no energy to do so already...

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23/8/2026

Sinful dinner.

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24/8/2026

Attended course by our BDD and I had ate numerous vegan bento from her.

After the course was a stroll at Blk A with my mentor, yes strolling in columbarium as if it's a shopping mall.

It's has a magical peaceful vibe here and vintage interior with an exquisite touch.

Walked pass a private suite, pic taken from far, haiz...

Envy this love that is not separated by death;  the kind of love that I will never have for the rest of my life.

I can't force him to love me, sometimes feel sore that he doesn't but I know I have no right...

I am feeling more and more attached to Nirvana.  I hope more people will know about this place but reaching out will be seen as "she is trying to hard sell...", no matter how sincere I am.

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27/8/2026

7.30am at Ling San Temple with my eyes half opened.

Prepared small bowls of offerings.  The dishes were pipping hot and smelling so nice.

My arms were gone lolxx...

If spirits were there, I hoped they could help me out of northwest wind, if they appreciated that I served them.  I felt so helpless and desperate...

Prayers began at 10am.

Family members started coming in.

Glad that all tables and preparations were done on time, we sat at a corner to eat our vegetarian brunch.

It was too taxing on my old bones, I couldn't make it to help out the next day.

Cooked Japanese broad noodles for dinner.

Luis said was super nice.  I forgotten what side dish I had cooked.

15 - 21 Aug 2026

15/8/2026

 

Here for training.  It's a crowded morning.

My mentor cooking peach gum desserts, our BDD trainer cooked us lunch, what more can one ask for?

But a lot of people take things from granted.  It really doesn't mean that we should suck blood from people who are better than us.  They are better cos they deserve it.  I am not there cos I am lost...

A suite at Block A.

The little partition says: 佛土生五色茎，一花一世界，一叶一如来.

We lived, we are human.  Don't dump ourselves into the sea like an unwanted object, don't dump ourselves in the drain garden, we are not a piece of trash.

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17/8/2026

$69 black jacket ugly as hell although it fitted.  After a few minutes of struggle, I really couldn't comprise.

Walked pass Casetify.

How can someone be so good looking...

From ION to Plaza Sing.

First time seeing HDL bubble tea.  Going to meet my gf for dinner so didn't get to try.

2nd visit to Nanjing Impression, had dinner with gf.

This gf of mine is the kindest lady in the world but somehow didn't like to talk about funeral planning.

She said she will leave everything to her daughter (as if her daughter will know what to do) and didn't feel comfortable to visit Nirvana.

It's a pity that I can't extend my offer/help but she is still one of my besties.

香干马兰头　$8.80

酥浸金鲳鱼　$18.80

天王烤鸭包　$6.80

抄猪颈  $13.80

Gf love the dishes so much that she returned herself the next day lolxx...

My mentor ordered a super huge banner for me, how am I going to carry it out omg...

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18/08/2026

When you bumped into a nurse that didn't know how to draw blood... haiz...

My hand was bruised for over a week.

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20/8/2026

I wasn't making enough effort at 800+, haiz... didn't close a single deal.

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 21/08/2026

4hrs of commute in total to Nirvana.

If only the commute is shorter, I'll be able to spend more time here.

Witness the biggest 7th month prayer at Nirvana.

The most expensive packages of $1388 and $1088 were the first to be sold out.

$1088.

Economic buffet style.

For babies who came too briefly.

For fur babies who went over the rainbow bridge.

The canteen prepared $5 rice/noodles bento + drinks.

I used to think that the 5th level of Blk B has got the best feng shui.

This day I found the Premium Suite (for pedestal only) has got the MOST COMFORTABLE vibe ever!!!  I don't know how to describe it, but the moment I stepped in peace just fell upon like a veil... I wa wa wa wa numerous times  Probably the best spot in Nirvana to me, not sure about others.  But Winnie felt that this is an extremely good place too.