01/02/2026
I felt very lonely, so I brought Zoa out, old man driving us to NEX.
Bought 2 sets of clothes at Underground boutique for merely $160+, then went to PRISM, bought a laundry dryer.
CNY tibit booths.
Bought 2 tubs of Mdm Ling to bring to the club, trying to accumulate minor bit of merit and make the already bad working place a bit better ba.
Awesome giant dried oysters for CNY. Bought them myself.
He would act blur, I couldn't be bothered with him actually. But I tried to remind myself, anything more, I will be guilty. Everybody deserves the love, except for me...
Skechers collaborate with Demon Slayer again.
Was $129 or so, but I have enough shoes already.
Yaki Yaki Bo Teppanyaki for dinner.
The rare occasion of him getting me a decent dinner. He close-fisted. But at my side, a lot of times I only have non-working Sundays which I didn't want to step out of the house.
The meal was great, melt our ice a little bit. But somehow I was still feeling lonely...
Didn't realize we order shabu beef and shabu pork, too shabu, not satisfying but still delicious.
Seabass fillet + prawns.
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02/02/2026
Work place is getting toxic:
one admin exec leaving after 2 years (the committee members were considering to lodge a police report against her, shocking story which I don't think it's appropriate to disclose);
admin assistant manager leaving (constantly drowning at work but not productive enough in boss's eyes, but that said, she was very very nice and supportive to me, no human is perfect after all);
my partner at front desk leaving (the club did not offer him a permanent position, cos he made it known that this place is a stepping stone, also he is a back stabber, nobody said goodbye to him on his last day);
another part-time receptionist leaving (she couldn't stand this place).
5pax (including myself) leaving/left the club within the period of Jan to Feb, when there's only 7 employees in total. The other 2 who stayed started only last year Sep.
Still, I shared cookies to colleagues and some familiar club members.
MiXue thermal flask at work. Gift from gf lolxx...
舞狮头 slippers from TaoBao. Wanted to wear for CNY but can't wait. Too cute. Darren thought it's ugly though haahaahaa...
About 2 more weeks to CNY, giving myself some auspicious earlier.
May 心想事不成 vicious cycle be over...
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03/02/2026
My front desk partner back stabbed me. He was the one who showed my around, I changed shifts with him whenever he requested, and this was how he repaid me. He left on the 5th, may we never cross paths ever again.
16 year old cat. She's getting weak and old, so are we.
Came to bath my father after work.
Old man had been kind, he came for dinner then drove me home.
On the other hand he acted blur when I paid for the YTF soups, I felt petty. When can I be rich enough not to be petty?
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05/02/2026
I confronted the back stabber. He said he merely notify the boss on the complain email, not having and intention to backstab me. I told him that's called back stabbing. He said this is the way he work. With that said I finally knew why he was being asked to leave in his previous jobs and how much his wife had suffered and wanted a divorce. 可怜之人必有可恨之处。 Mirroring myself, can somebody tell me where and what had I done wrong? So wrong yet I don't know, so wrong that I deserve to suffer so much physical and mental pain.
The thousand dollars PRISM dryer came, the LED lights on it were so pretty.
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06/02/2026
That committee member in charge of HR told me the club decided to let me go after once my 3 months contract is complete. I can't wait to go, I have no wish to stay either. The more he talked, the more I felt something amiss.
The months of work didn't help my bank. But it cushioned me for the next full time job.
The 30pax event was great. Not much rubbish left behind. I mingled a bit, commercial hugs here and there.
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07/02/2026
After talking to my colleague, I realized I am retarded, he is just a scumbag. To think that I was stupid to take his words seriously: "Your work capabilities falls below expectation". Is just crap, in where had I not meet up with expectations? Washing of 100+ wine glasses or throwing of bags of trash?
I am leaving, even if it means that I can't get another job for another few months.
Cool weather.
The club was freezing, especially when I was all alone guarding the club myself.
Wearing Darren's SuperDry which he normally wears to school.
I wore this thick hoody all the way from Bencoolen to Tampines. Old man asked me out to visit the PRISM outlet at Tampines to find out how to use the dryer's tray.
I must looked weird, but nobody knew I was "thawing" lolxx...
We had dinner at Legendary HK Cafe at B1 of Tampines Mall.
I had better at Plaza Sing, so this was the first and last visit.
The long beans rice rolls was something new, super smooth and soft, this was really nice after the average 黯然销魂 and pork chop bun.
That's first week of Feb.
Can't wait to get over Feb as my contract with the job agent ends at month end. In the beginning, I thought this job was my life buoy, I really didn't expect it to sink. As if it's unavoidable for me to go through all these, 一坑又一坑, I have no idea there are how many more 坑 ahead waiting for me. It's already to the extend where I have to remind and tell myself to stay alive. It also doesn't matter whether I am having depression or not, no doc can help, only money drop from the sky will help.
I have to stay alive.
