Massive kitchen cleaning

 Date: 28/07/2021 (Wed)

I had small chicken pie and milo for breakfast.

I wanted to clean the kitchen walls only up ended up wiping the cabinets and fridge top as well.

I am not that sort of crazy woman that keeps cleaning and cleaning for no reason.  You see the wet wipes, how disgusting.....  Dirty kitchen walls meaning the cooking hood is not working well already, time to change the charcoal filters...... urgently else the walls and cabinets are turning yellow again in no time.

How often do you guys wipe your exterior kitchen cabinets and walls?

The warm weather could melt any warrior.... had ice + mint + lemon.  I still have more than half pack of mint leaves left which I kept in the freezer, hope they freeze well.

And I kept hurting myself while cleaning, haiz.... sure would blue black one.

The wall ceramics and cabinets became matt after cleaning which I didn't realise until after dinner.

So I wiped down 50% of it with glass cleanser over again at mid night, almost died.

Depression

 Date: 29/06/2021 (Tues)

Bake the baguette, melt some cheese, stuffed in eggs and bacon for Luis.

Myself, I steam the milk cake before they spoil, shelve live not too long for this fresh item from Paradise Group.

I made chicken stew for dinner, they hated the coriander lolxx....

I have been thinking a lot as to why am I so unhappy......  Logically there shouldn't be a reason.....

I don't need to work, I am safe at home, my children are doing well, my baby sis is back from Oman..... I am perhaps expecting too much from him..... probably I have so much free time that I started to pick at him..... he is totally not affected and not bothered.

Saw this from a Youtuber.  She may be right, cos I am not waiting for anything, I have nothing to wait, nothing to look forward.

Before Covid, I will wait for the holiday, no matter how screw up things may be before it, no matter how many months is the wait, I know the day will come, where I can pack up, pick up my luggage and go.   Travelling filled my heart and soul so much...... when one trip ends, it's time to plan for another and it repeats.  I never ever, seriously, ever thought this beautiful cycle, my life cycle will be broken.

Initial half a year I was ok lazing at home, now not ok.....

Now I am empty...... I am feeling so depressed.  Depression is scary......

I need to pull myself out......

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Date: 30/06 2021 (Wed)

I ripped off the package from the dish washing liquid bottle and bought a sprayer to put the degreaser liquid.  Whenever I look at my kitchen top, I 暗爽。So sleek......

I made mini brioche buns kiap spicy tuna and kaya & butter for Luis.

He asked for more and had 4 in total, can't thanks Angliss enough...

Finding ways to be happy...

 Date: 21/06/2021 (Mon)

Juicing is the fastest way to get rid of dying veg.  This time the dying one is the avocado pulp.  It's difficult cos I am the only one who eats avocado at home.

Adding it into juice 神不知鬼不觉。

The blender is so heavy for me.  I tried to sell it off but no lucky in Carousell.

Wiping the balcony areas where only the ladder could bring me.  The more I wiped the more areas I found dirty...... do slowly lah.....

The milk shake filled me up I thought I could skip dinner then hor 9pm, hungry.

So made myself fried rice, fat die me.

Already fat, makes no difference to go further at 12am.  Ate a bit for fun, ordered by greedy Darren.

Nice new sauces, but no need to go crazy about it lolxx...

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Date: 22/06/2021 (Tues)

My brunch.  Had kept the expired bread in the fridge, they could last about 5 more days.

Stale bread tasted awesome after pan toast with butter.

It's raining but I was out to buy some veg, cos little Ber was coming for dinner after missing her for a month.

Prepared early at 4pm since I was slow nowadays.

Soup with onions and chicken bone....

Chopped up whatever I could.

My korean seafood pancake became like carrot cake lolxx.... but taste was good.

Gotten 2 kimbap from Angliss.  Chose the tofu kimbap.

I had no idea where's the tofu though.

My army soup so good sia, can open shop liao lolxx....

I think I need to concentrate to make myself happier.  I think I need to leave the house more often.

Pandenmic fatique

 Date: 19/06/2021 (Sat)

Luis bought me breakfast which I ate at 1pm.  I wanna sleep by 12am and wake up by 11am.  More than half a year is gone and it's still not done.  Can I please.......... urrggg.....

Changed my BayMax's shirt.  So the body is very white but head a bit yellow.

I fondly remembered how I tugged it back from Harbin China.

This came and I wanted to paint it over the mold area of the master bath.

No amount of detergent can get rid of them, those mold killer are a bit costly.

Such an eye sore but seems that I am the only one who's bothered by it.

Pass mid night, old man asked for food.  There's always food in the fridge, how fortunate we are.

From freezer, chee chong fun steam 12mins 就有得吃了.

Old man aged a lot recently.... we aged a lot.

Cases were going down but still pissed off whenever I see imports.

It's getting depressing even for a introvert me.  Travelling used to be my major goal in life and now no more.  I worked, tolerate all the nonsense with hope cos at the end I will be rewarded a trip to see the world.   Now there is no end, I don't know how long more we have to wait for this damn thing to be over.....

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Date: 20/06/2021 (Sun)

Made myself brunch.  My poach eggs were almost perfect.  Supposed to have green salad as side but spoiled liao, so angry that it last for less than 2 days only.

So I stir fried some mushrooms with celery, you can see it's blur blur behind.

We ta bao curry fish head, simple yummy dinner for Father's Day.

Felt a bit bad for not cooking but I was too tired to go on liao.

Watching lots of Youtube

 Date: 17/06/2021 (Thurs)

Made Japanese curry with chicken patties for the Luis.

The same for myself but one patty plus a half shime saba.

Dinner ta bao.

Sometimes it's so difficult to clear the pantry with items given by others from somewhere or other.

Didn't like the raisins, so ate it with kit kat.

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Date: 18/06/2021 (Fri)

They kept messing up, I keep packing and cleaning like an idiot.

The father would leave a floor of ashes for me every morning.  And Luis hardly packs up after his DIY projects.  I very tired, I really very tired.

I dream of living alone everyday now, then I can have my own house spotless and minimal the way I like without slogging like a cow..... I am suppose be a pig leh...... pig forced to be a cow.... sigh.......

So I envy her life in Japan in a very small apartment.  She probably envy mine too, cos she said she feels lonely sometimes.  Nobody knows I can be very lonely also, basically I have nobody to talk to.  I am talking lesser and lesser to him, cos he doesn't want to listen, living together, drifting apart......

Dinner was coffee ribs.  Only I like it, so can't buy any more, sigh.....

I didn't know how but I fell into a very bad timing of sleeping at 3am.  Previously was around 1.30am and my health was improving.  Now I am killing myself again.

Mid Jun, more food

 Date: 12/06/2021 (Sat)

Apparently they opened another outlet at Tampines 800+.  I am not sure where, will find out when I step out lolxx...

PapaVoo bought me beef, had it for brunch.

Dinner had bee hoon and ngo hiang.

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Date: 13/06/2021 (Sun)

Went to Oakwood to celebrate my niece's birthday.  Suddenly she is 16!!

Thanks to my baby sis, she ordered Brotzeit.

If my baby sis is not here, my kid sis would order Umi sushi, yeeeeeeeks.

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Date: 14/06/2021 (Mon)

Had rice dumplings for brunch, ate until almost finish then took pic.

Cooked simple dinner.  Very disappointed with Donki's cabbage rolls.  Inside 1 teaspoon of meat nia, so angry....

Revenge by having durian mousse for dessert.