Depression

 Date: 29/06/2021 (Tues)

Bake the baguette, melt some cheese, stuffed in eggs and bacon for Luis.

Myself, I steam the milk cake before they spoil, shelve live not too long for this fresh item from Paradise Group.

I made chicken stew for dinner, they hated the coriander lolxx....

I have been thinking a lot as to why am I so unhappy......  Logically there shouldn't be a reason.....

I don't need to work, I am safe at home, my children are doing well, my baby sis is back from Oman..... I am perhaps expecting too much from him..... probably I have so much free time that I started to pick at him..... he is totally not affected and not bothered.

Saw this from a Youtuber.  She may be right, cos I am not waiting for anything, I have nothing to wait, nothing to look forward.

Before Covid, I will wait for the holiday, no matter how screw up things may be before it, no matter how many months is the wait, I know the day will come, where I can pack up, pick up my luggage and go.   Travelling filled my heart and soul so much...... when one trip ends, it's time to plan for another and it repeats.  I never ever, seriously, ever thought this beautiful cycle, my life cycle will be broken.

Initial half a year I was ok lazing at home, now not ok.....

Now I am empty...... I am feeling so depressed.  Depression is scary......

I need to pull myself out......

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Date: 30/06 2021 (Wed)

I ripped off the package from the dish washing liquid bottle and bought a sprayer to put the degreaser liquid.  Whenever I look at my kitchen top, I 暗爽。So sleek......

I made mini brioche buns kiap spicy tuna and kaya & butter for Luis.

He asked for more and had 4 in total, can't thanks Angliss enough...