Sad birthday

Date: 03/12/2019 (Tues)

After yesterday's painful lesson, I lie on bed 20hrs with my phone.  The rest of the 4hrs was to pee, eat, bath.

It took me many days to realise that I had to wrap the entire shoe with wet paper else the yellow water stains would start to appear at other areas of the boots.

By the time most yellow stains were gone, mold appeared T__T

I gonna see if the sun can lessen mold.


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Date:04/12/2019 (Wed)

The most unhappy birthday ever despite of messages from friends and family.

Gotten 2 slice cakes from Luis and Eileen, they probably couldn't get a birthday cake.

Will anybody cry if I die?  It's sad to know that I am not priority in anybody's heart.

All the more I need to love myself, cos I can't force people to love me.

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Date: 05/12/2019 (Thurs)

Ever since PMDs were banded, have to order GrabFood 1hr in advance.

Hubby said I waste money (or act rich).  But I was just using money to buy more free time and conserve energy so that I could go to work later.  Food deliveries saves life, if only this service was available when my children were young, life would definitely be so much more easier.

Luis wanted me to join him in next year's AFA event.  I shall be Mei (Overwatch).

I already looked like her in summer clothes.  We decided to make her robot Snow Ball and the gun cos it was about US160 over dollars to buy the set.  We will install LED lights and I am gonna rock the event! Lolxx...

Luis said he will help me with the assembly but again, I better take the responsibility myself.  I had rough idea on how to go about but the hands on is going to be very challenging for me.  I hope to at least get the materials ready at next year Jan after leaving GrabFood.

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Date: 06/12/2019 (Fri)

End work at 2.30pm but stayed back to eat and finished up odd works, left at 3.30pm.

After work, went FaceShop to buy cleansers and a new moisturiser for Luis.  I snailed so slowly that I reached home only at 5pm haahaa....

Hubby went to collect free gift from LG washing machine.

He gotten 5 big boxes of laundry powder which came in sheets.  It very interesting to use and I think it's going to last me till after CNY lolxx..

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Date: 07/12/2019 (Sat)

After lunch shift, went to visit my old father.  It's physically challenging for me as I was already feeling weak at work.

But cooking a meal for him was the least thing I could do.  Cooked minced pork porridge for him.

Nowadays he wasn't too responsive and didn't swallow too well.  I so worried that he might have to be tube fed one day, pains me so much to see him suffering like this.  I am hoping to spend more time with him, after leaving GrabFood.  How to have both worlds without tearing myself apart...

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Date: 08/12/2019 (Sun)

Grab app was down during the lunch peak hour resulting in bad sales, so sad.

Brought home lots of food.

Ate around 4pm and I didn't feel hungry throughout the day.

PapaVoo was a great help today, he mopped and did the laundry.  So I was able to tidy up the house and did some ironing, the house was at least not chaotic any more.  My heart felt so much lighter.  Feeling happy for the first time since we came back from China.