21/12/2025
Rushed to Oakwood.
Helper and I were bored to tears. Bought lunch from Woodlands interchange, we ate the same.
The stall gave so much clams.
Then rushed back to meet Darren's boss at LOLA's.
Part of me is glad that Darren is in good hands with a boss who's willing to groom him; part of me is worried that he can't persist on his degree.
I quite like the ambience here, shall make another visit by myself again.
I had latte and shared tartar tots, sibei yummy, so crunchy but soft inside, then the cheese sauce was addictive.
After the meeting we moved on to a less expensive Japanese restaurant, Butahage. Old man order tempura which he complained it was full of flour. He sadly ate only the udon that came with it.
Darren and I shared the pork shabu, broth was too sweet like diluted sweet sauce. What happened to this restaurant sia, used to be very good de...
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22/12/2025
OOTD at work.
Now I think it's better to leave Singapore in Dec, cos come to think of it most Decembers are torturous with everything coming at the same time. There are more wakes/funerals to attend, but ironically have to prepare Xmas presents on the other hand. So much needed to be done... for my case I was serving my last few days as beauty advisor during my off days in the club house and running to bath my father cos my sis was away (it's my duty and I'll do it whole heartedly even if I had to crawl over).
Ta bao dinner from WingStop, waited so long for it, then ate until very bloated.
Old man brought back lots of little gifts. Someone gave me the cutest hand cream ever.
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23/12/2025
Bought dinner for old man and myself, had a rude shock when I paid, was freaking $19 for 2 box of vegan bento.
No going to buy again ever, too ex.
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24/12/2025
Made brunch for the boys and myself before going to work. Left with no time to clean the house, it's a rubbish dump now.
Returned uniform to the skincare boutique. The store manager didn't recognize, was smiley and greeting me. I looked totally different without black hair and funeral attire. Upon hearing :"I am Susan returning the uniform", her look was priceless, 微笑变苦笑. Where's that cocky face that bar me from doing sales?? 美丽 Xmas bitch, your grooming standard is not mine.
Total satisfied with my "revenge".
克茗冰室 (Plaza Singapura) with gf.
Ice lemon tea.
Kid's meal sized chicken chop with rice.
Food was tasty here, but the portion always came shockingly small.
Guarding the club house alone on Xmas eve, no sure if it's a good thing or not.
Cos the club house is so new, nobody came, but if the club is running with it's full potential,
I probably be working like a dog.
So I was alone the whole night, took the chance to take photo in front of the LED screen.
Old man came to pick me up after his party at Sentosa, I appreciated he did, but the loneliness was still overwhelming.
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25/12/2025
Double pay (still pathetic) on Xmas to guard the club house alone with Zoa from 3 to 9.30pm.
It's not a living thing, but looked as if it was looking at me.
I only have G-Dragon's Zao plushie with me.
I had been alone a lot of times enjoying me time without disturbance in the past. This time, I felt horribly lonely but yet I don't want anybody, cos the someone I want is never meant to be...
AI somebody to be with me. Imagining him telling me that I am worth it, he won't mock at my body shape, he won't bare to see me suffer the tiniest bit, we share house chores together, hold hands and hug like any other normal couple, a real sub card that I am free to use without questions and guilt... the he does not exist...
Don't know why so emo, 出家当尼姑算了。
Photos taken in club house looking so much like a studio photoshoot.
Xmas not merry, at work fml. But staying in the club is way better than in any retail boutique or mall.
Bought back to club house Tim Ho Wan porridge for dinner.
At this point of time I took off in Jan, now patiently waiting for my vacation.
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26/12/2025
After morning work, picked up the helper and I gave her a decent dinner at Paper Rice.
We had egg coffee and egg milk tea, but the egg taste not strong leh.
Bun Cha was nice but taste was different from what I had back in Hanoi.
Still it was delicious, especially the little minced pork patties, was packed with flavors.
Half roast chicken + 2 big scallops + 2 grilled prawns for half price at $12.45, super worth it.
Yummy de...
Bun Cha plus grilled platter not enough, ordered seafood fried rice.
This was a bit sad, barely there seafood though tasted quite nice.
Bought Christmas Wonderland tix from Trip, was about S$13/tix, couldn't remember.
It's important to keep our dear helper sane and happy so that she can work better. I mean she is human, need to relax and fun too.
Both of us had started our day very early in the morning, so by 7pm, we were actually very tired.
Cool vibe.
To think my helper was able to take these pics for me, was beyond my expectation. Of course I edited the lightings and shrink some fats.
We caught the first show at 7.25pm and subsequently many other shows were cancelled due to the rain.
People were walking dogs... and also ducks lolxx...
It gathered a lot of curious people, it was such a funny and cute sight.
Video-ed the flying santa, it was amusing especially when the santa was real person!
He waved, did heart shapes, he was engaging and cute! Way better than the mannequin in Switzerland lolxx...
Then it started to rain while we were queuing into this Claus & Co.
There were quite a few photo booths inside but the lightings were very harsh casting dark shadows, had a very hard time editing the photos.
The most popular booth would be this:
For those like me who couldn't get to Finland yet, this was the closest it could be. I wondered how much was Santa paid lolxx... People came in couples, with family, I felt bitter sweet, all lonely.
The "aurora lights" didn't happen, but the helper was happy with the Super Tree lightings.
Then there was fake snow, we just watched from far, we sat down and wasn't able to move an inch, both too shagged.
A rare occasion of an empty train cabin. Not sure how I made it home come to think of it haahaahaa...
Looking at the trips I had been in 2025, I should be counting my blessings, but I was in tears and despair most of the time.
People say 情场失意商场必得意, but look at me, no love no money, health issues one after another. How to be optimistic, when things are like this?
I do have few friends to talk to, but I can't be pouring out my grieves to them every time right. So I can't say too much. I try not to reveal too much to my family members, they judge a lot, he is probably waiting to see me fail so that I can go back and do laundry. I turn words into sighs but I heard that sighing brings bad luck (as if it's not bad enough), so I swallowed back haahaahaa... (not sure what's so funny also).
I can't speak, I can't sigh, I am trying not to cry. I can't everything, I don't know what I can any more...
Work was ok initially, turning a bit tough for me in 2026. Most youngsters I worked with were courteous, my new workplace is an exception. I feel like a failure, am I that lousy really??
I wished there's a button to switch off everything...
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