TIRED

Date: 21/01/2020 (Tues)

Nice view from my father's ward, not sure to love or hate it.

 Bought brunch at KTPH's Mr Bean.  Pork balls porridge with soy milk for $4.50, rare deal and taste great.

Late noon see my baby sis off.  Surprised that A&W got no queue!

Missed the magical root beer float though I wasn't willing to spend 1hr or more queuing for it.

Couldn't go without waffles.

They named their chicken hot dog CHUBBY lolxx... so cute.

Sending her off was heart wrecking, but we were all too tired to cry this time.  I'll be flying over to Oman anyway.  No concrete plans yet but should be after Jun.

Was almost snoring in the bus on the way home.

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Date: 22/01/2020 (Wed)

The surgery given me a dimple.  Not so upset le... but the relieve was short lived.  As I had mentioned in my previous post, the cyst seemed to grow back; the dimple disappeared due to the swell.

I am going back to the hospital next week.

Managed to change new bed sheets (from IKEA) before heading to the hospital.

Hubby came to fetch me and we headed to North Point for a quick dinner at the food court.

Wanted to go NTUC to stock up a bit of food and drinks for CNY but it was too crowded to even walk in.

Suddenly remembered that there's a new Sheng Shiong near our house, so we drove back to Tampines.  Shouldn't had waste time and energy at Yishun.  Sheng Shiong no queue, no crowd and we gotten at least some things to tide over CNY.

I tired until beyond description, no amount of 灵芝 or chicken essence could help.

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Date: 23/01/2020 (Thurs)

Made Darren soup for cough.

He coughed out plenty of phlegm after drinking.

He helped me to wash the toilet and kept the socks, it was great help.  Afternoon went hospital to check on my father.  Only today, we realized that the hospital's air mattress wasn't working, the nurses never check also, sigh....

Came back home at night, ironing bed sheet at 10pm, hubby said not necessary but I couldn't stand the crease.

Only one word: TIRED

Attending POP

Date: 18/01/2020 (Sat)

This was Darren's big day, his passing out parade.

PapaVoo could still ask me why I never put on make-up.

How to put on make-up when I have a fucking surgical wound on my cheek?!?  I know it's not worth to be angry but I just couldn't help it, I probably angry till I shorten my own life span for a couple of hours.

My son in the parade....

I found my son through the zoom lens and he was smiling at me lolxx... clever boy.

I looked horrible, nevertheless, a photo for remembrance.

So proud of my son.

In the evening, went to hospital to see my father for a while bringing Luis and his girlfriend along.

After that we went Kanshoku Ramen at NorthPoint for dinner.  The server introduce the menu to us unwillingly with a black face, other than that the food was great and comforting for my tired soul and body.  We stayed around the ramen bar while PapaVoo went to smoke, then he lost his way lolxx...

Exhausted...

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Date: 19/01/2020 (Sun)

Played Pokemon at the airport.

After that had lunch at T3 foodcourt.  Saw the next table having this, amused, so I ordered this as a dessert after having yong tau foo.

Dinner, ta bao this crazy yummy saute fish and clams from Lee Kwang Kee Fish Soup at Blk 200+.

Didn't go hospital to visit my father this day, hope he's getting better.

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Date: 20/01/2020 (Mon)

Went to the hospital alone for removing the stitches.  After 2hrs of waiting, I decided to go for lunch first.  Pasta was really good.

  The removing of stitches was fast, then patched up so I had no idea how's the scar.

My kid sis applied hospital leave so that my father could come home for dinner for a few hours.  Although he couldn't eat, he knew we were all there for him.

  We had early reunion dinner and baby sis flew back to Oman the next day.

She had very tight working schedule and needed to fly to London for work in about a week's time, seriously hectic.

Back home during night, took off the plaster and the scar didn't look that bad.

Dr recommend plastic procedures to be done only after 6 months.  Just when I thought it should be fine, while I am typing this, it's swelling again.  I am not sure the swell is from the wound itself or the god damn cyst came back.  I may have to go another cut, then I'll die as a ugly scar face fat woman.  Anyone, please save me...

Hospital to home, home to hospital....

Date: 14/01/2020 (Tues)

Appointment had been pre-booked, went to ICA to collect my new passport.  Little did I know that I had to bring along my old passport for verification.  I was asked to come back later or the next day, the consolation was no need to queue, just keep the old queue ticket with me.

Just when I thought I could get home, my father was hospitalized again.

Luis came also and we had late lunch together at KTPH's food court.

We used to love the food court, but now no more.

My father was so frail that the doc told us to prepare for the worst.

We were all mentally prepared but it was still hard not to cry.  Then we summon our baby sis from Oman to back come.  Facing my father's life and death, I had no mood to bother about the scar on my face any more.

Darren gotten a time out to see his grandfather.

Not at home from this on wards, my house started to accumulate dust again, the laundry started to pile up again.  I was too tired after coming home from the hospital.  All efforts for the past days became zero.  Tokyo trip had to put on halt.

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Date: 15/01/2020 (Wed)

I went back to ICA to collect my passport, bought cooling herbal tea for everybody, then took a cab to KTPH.  The cab driver wished my father well, I was about cry.  My baby sis, took the fastest flight and was at there when I reached.

At night, I took off the plaster, for the first time I saw the stitches.

Not sure how it's going to be like after removing the stitches.

心力交瘁

Now that this is a throwback update, everything is fine and over.  It was really torturous that time, can I don't go hospital again ever?

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Date: 16/01/2020 (Thurs)

Wake up, turned on washing machine, played Pokemon Sword while waiting, go hospital, night hubby fetch home.

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Date: 17/01/2020 (Fri)

Inserting tube for feeding for the 3rd attempt, this time it worked!  There's a glimpse of hope, father's gonna make it.

We walked over to Yishun Hospital, wanted to have a drink ended up having dinner at 4.30pm lolxx...  We ate like no tomorrow and had lots of fun teasing my little nephew.

Another surgery done...

Date: 11/01/2020 (Sat)

Had wanted to remove the window grills for the longest time since the kids are now grown-ups.

Back then wanted to get the contractors who were renovating our kitchen to help, but then they screwed up so much that I just wanted them to get lost.  PapaVoo had dismantled the grills.  Finally gotten rid of the useless grills that's so difficult to clean.  The old window films is another "project".  It's turning into ugly yellow and many parts are flaking.  The headache part is some are still very tightly stick to the windows, not sure how to remove them yet....  Lots of cleaning up after dumping the old curtains and removed the grills.

Was about to put up new black out curtains from IKEA but the existing hooks couldn't be used.  So had to fly down to IKEA to get the hooks even though it's a Saturday.  We managed to beat the crowd at the cafe at 4.40pm. 

After a day of cleaning, evening was great with Pokemon Sword, loving it more than PokemonGo, heehee...

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Date: 12/01/2020 (Sun)

Stayed at home, tried to do more housework (and more Pokemon Sword) cos' the next day surgery (again), haiz......

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Date: 13/01/2020 (Mon)

I was very happy that my kid sis came to pick me, I thought she would be with me for the day.  She never inform me that she needed to bring her in-law to another hospital.  So I was left alone.  If I had know she could only stay for a while, I rather get Luis's gf to accompany me through the day.... haiz..... I sigh until no breath le...

The doc's schedule was tight, I waited for a long time.  It's local anesthetic, so I walked in and out of the surgery theater.  Other then the painful jabs, the procedure was comfortable with pop music playing at the playground.

I didn't not get to see how's the stitches like, so no point thinking too much about it....

Took a cab home and rest myself on bed for the day with panadol.

Mid Jan

It was quite a tough patch, but my father managed to pull through.  I wouldn't say that we are good, but we made it alive (literally).  The busiest first few days of CNY is finally over.  PapaVoo has gone back to work, Darren starting his vocation, Luis gone back to school for his last semester and me, home alone at long last, back to the keyboards.

So I got plenty to update, glad that few of you are reading, sharing my life story....

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Date: 08/01/2020 (Wed)

I am losing friends cos I don't initiate meet ups.  But whenever ppl jio me, I will turn up unless I am working or in hospital (so damn frequently).  However, it's not enough, ppl initiate until sian liao...

So when a Hokkaido travel mate jio, I was happy to crawl out of my shell although I was a little tired.  Sigh..... since when I am not tired anyway.

We had a meal a Ma-Maison Takashimaya, talked a lot about our children, miraculously I felt a lot better, really.  We struggled so much as a mother, we looked fine on the appearance, nobody will ever know what we been through.

It was quiet around 11.30am, so we could hog the table guilt-free.

We shared sea-food paella, I was treating this as my last meal of seafood before surgery.

She wanted salmon, so this was it.

Glad to be at Takashima's CNY food bazar, it's way better than Chinatown (to each's own).

I bought truffle ships, KALE pineapple balls and bandung pineapple tarts.

Also bought a small ceramic pot at $29, good for 1pax porridge or instant noodles.

The color matches my black kitchen, the colorful lid is brilliant.

Took a photo outside Chomel's pop-up store.

Can't wait to see the real sakura.... I haven't book airtix, still waiting for Luis's school schedule.

Didn't mange to persuade my friend to do pedi with me.  So I went after she left.  This China aunty was giving out leaflet at Wisma, I gave it a try without pinning any hopes.  The salon was at Lucky Plaza.

It turned out to be one of the best pedi ever.  While my massage was still unbeatable (some of you may know I used to be a manicurist), my cuticles were all cleared.

A conservative reddish pink but I like it.  Fat feet 2 shades fairer heehee...

 DIY pedi is difficult cos my fat tummy is obstructing a lot, but I probably doing mani myself when CNY is nearer.

I ta bao yong tau foo for hubby which was at the same floor.  Then he came to pick me up at TANGS avoiding the ERP, heehee...

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Date: 09/01/2020 (Thurs)

2 more bow cushions came from TaoBao, my sofa looked a million dollars now.

Absolutely pleased with myself lolxx....

The flower arrange was completed, thanks to hubby who bought the CNY decor piece which covered the glass vase completely.

Since yesterday I was out, housework was accumulated.  Each day I am not at home, the next day I have to "pay back".  You probably will ask how dirty the house can be, I can tell you, VERY.  Visible dust and hair everywhere, every corner, I die.....

I will take a pic of my floor wipe to show one of these days, heehee...

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Date: 10/01/2020 (Fri)

Back to Changi Hospital again, yay..... urrrg.....

The cyst somehow turned black and big over the week.  It's infected and the surgery was arranged quickly on 13rd.  Fees can be covered by Medisave but my main concern is still the scar.  There's no way out other than giving my cheek a knife to get the rotting pus out.  I am really upset that I have to go through this.  Only Luis 安慰 me, hubby didn't bother.  I began to wonder if I will be better off single, only god knows.

Had some jap beef with rice set at the hospital's food court and it's not nice sia.

I will have plenty of chance to try other stalls anyway.

Hubby came home half day, so I suggested to go Jurong Point to look for bed sheets before fetching Darren from HTA.  Thank goodness, we found something he likes and within the budget.

Malaysia Boheh food court now less crowd after the expansion.

Tea break was great.

We ta bao dinner and fetch our precious son home.  My body ache all over, calling it a day.