Rainy nights...

Date: 15/12/2019 (Sun)

Passed midnite on the lappie, made an order from Tao Bao.  I had saw a blouse which I like on a local online blog shop.  I flashed the photo of it at TaoBao and gotten the exact piece for half the price.

Saw many more loose fit dresses which I was very very tempted to get them all.  They all look good over my fats:

But I better save up for my Tokyo trip and also keep reminding myself how hard I am trying to move towards minimalize life style with less possessions.

I knew I was going die the next morning to work.  Morning felt too nauseated to eat breakfast.  The problem was work only end at 2.30pm which I was famished like a monster by then.

Didn't want to wait for free food, work wasn't busy, so sneaked out to buy a packet of rice.

Hubby came to pick me up, he was hungry, drove to Zion Market, he queued to half an hour for this cha kway teow.  I ate a bit just to see how's the taste. 

Meal times are always odd in weekends.

After sending Darren back to Home Team, we went to eat Mcdonald's for supper around 9pm.

Yeah, before the limited mushroom angus beef burger is gone.

It was good in a cold starry night.

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Date: 16/12/2019 (Mon)

I love working at night, I didn't have to force myself up the bed.

I made fish porridge for myself before going to work.

I had never take advantage of working in Fort Canning so far.  So it's now or never.

Clark Quay was just 5mins walk from my work place, but it's my first time enjoying the loud music and breeze here.  I felt like a tourist.  PapaVoo was very happy, grinning all the way.

Those were the good old days when we were young, those were the nights with lights.  Now all nights only associated with bed and bolster.

I had the whole Donki by ourselves at 10.30pm.

Beef and pork are actually cheaper and of course better than neighbourhood supermarkets.  How I wish they can open one outlet at Tampines.

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Date: 17/12/2019(Tues)

Eileen came, I whipped up lunch for her and Luis.

Luis said their family only cooks chinese food, so I cooked up japanese.  I made butter clams with prawn cake, tamago and beef sukiyaki.  $10 shabu beef from Donki was more than enough for 3 of us.  Oh, we had udon in miso soup to go with the dishes.

The children helped to clear up while I took my own sweet time to do the washing before going to work.

Saw this lovely message at work:

But selfishly, I wish the weather is like this forever so that I won't get heat rashes on my arm pits, holy gawd...

Torn apart....

Date:13/12/2019 (Fri)

Working at Eunos outlet.  Didn't feel like at work, cos biz affected by the rainy weather, so we weren't busy.  And my Supervisor turned on very loud music.

I bought sofa online.

I went ahead despite of the low overall height.  I hope everything turns out well.

Eileen was having ulcers, so we shared a less spicy mala pot while the boys and their father had a super spicy bowl.

It's my first mala pot after the surgery.  I am not doing well, still bleeding.  Probably will bring forward my medical appointment once I leave the job.

Actually, I am so torn between to carry on with a job that at least gets me peanuts or to stay at home to nurse back my health and do a mega spring clean.  I hate myself not able to do both at the same time.....

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Date: 14/12/2019 (Sat)

Off day, nua in bed and started to look at cherry blossom areas in Tokyo.

The pictures were already making me excited.

It's a 12hrs Pokemon Community Day.  We went Changi Village and were disappointed with the poor spawn.

Odd hour meal at 3.30pm was still good at $4.50 each plate.

Grilled chicken drum topped with spicy pineapples.

Grilled chicken drum topped with sambal.

Will continue to update more tomorrow, it's midnite le, omg...

Not depress any more...

Date: 09/12/2019 (Mon)

OFF YEAH!

I cooked myself brunch, eggs, tread fin and some edamame with corn porridge.

I managed to tidy up the place quite a bit so I was very happy.  Evening went Century Sq to have dinner and replenished some household items.

Can see people love it here, it was crowded even on a weekday.

We ordered a mini buddha jump.

All soups here tasted the same no matter which you ordered, only the ingredients inside were different.  There were abalone slices, chicken and fat mushrooms.

A portion of fried rice was filling enough for old man and me.

Some dim sum here, 不饱才怪.

 

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Date: 10/12/2019 (Tues)

Working dinner shift and I like it cos could sleep as late as I like.

Making a bit of research, I think I am including Nikko in my Japan trip.  I am attracted by the natural reserves and onsen there.  Imagine staying in a place surrounded by mountains and rivers, also onsen....  Relax a bit before playing hard in Tokyo...

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Date: 11/12/2019 (Wed)

Another dinner shift at work.

It's a chilly rainy night where aircon indoor was warmer than outside.

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Date: 12/12/2019 (Thurs)

Bought this from Chateraise as tea break, 吃饱可以睡了.

Hubby came home when I was about to fall asleep.  He fished me out of bed and we went to airport.

Jewel was crazy beautiful.  A&W and Shake Shack's queues were ever lasting, I guess I can only eat them in overseas.

We had dinner at Kam Roast.

I was happy with the crispy pipa duck, so sinful, yum yum...

Yeah, my mood is better these few days cos the house looks tidier (though I still can't find time to wipe off the dust on top of various cupboards).  Also I managed to persuade him to buy a normal set of sofa.  Previously I had made do with 2 tatami arm chairs.  Not that I don't like them any more but I had difficulty in getting up each time I sat down.  Difficulty means painful knees and ankles, haiz....  He didn't understand the pains I am having but he still agreed to let me buy whatever that makes me happy.

Was exhausted when I reached home, but it was still enjoyable loitering around in the airport.

Sad birthday

Date: 03/12/2019 (Tues)

After yesterday's painful lesson, I lie on bed 20hrs with my phone.  The rest of the 4hrs was to pee, eat, bath.

It took me many days to realise that I had to wrap the entire shoe with wet paper else the yellow water stains would start to appear at other areas of the boots.

By the time most yellow stains were gone, mold appeared T__T

I gonna see if the sun can lessen mold.


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Date:04/12/2019 (Wed)

The most unhappy birthday ever despite of messages from friends and family.

Gotten 2 slice cakes from Luis and Eileen, they probably couldn't get a birthday cake.

Will anybody cry if I die?  It's sad to know that I am not priority in anybody's heart.

All the more I need to love myself, cos I can't force people to love me.

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Date: 05/12/2019 (Thurs)

Ever since PMDs were banded, have to order GrabFood 1hr in advance.

Hubby said I waste money (or act rich).  But I was just using money to buy more free time and conserve energy so that I could go to work later.  Food deliveries saves life, if only this service was available when my children were young, life would definitely be so much more easier.

Luis wanted me to join him in next year's AFA event.  I shall be Mei (Overwatch).

I already looked like her in summer clothes.  We decided to make her robot Snow Ball and the gun cos it was about US160 over dollars to buy the set.  We will install LED lights and I am gonna rock the event! Lolxx...

Luis said he will help me with the assembly but again, I better take the responsibility myself.  I had rough idea on how to go about but the hands on is going to be very challenging for me.  I hope to at least get the materials ready at next year Jan after leaving GrabFood.

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Date: 06/12/2019 (Fri)

End work at 2.30pm but stayed back to eat and finished up odd works, left at 3.30pm.

After work, went FaceShop to buy cleansers and a new moisturiser for Luis.  I snailed so slowly that I reached home only at 5pm haahaa....

Hubby went to collect free gift from LG washing machine.

He gotten 5 big boxes of laundry powder which came in sheets.  It very interesting to use and I think it's going to last me till after CNY lolxx..

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Date: 07/12/2019 (Sat)

After lunch shift, went to visit my old father.  It's physically challenging for me as I was already feeling weak at work.

But cooking a meal for him was the least thing I could do.  Cooked minced pork porridge for him.

Nowadays he wasn't too responsive and didn't swallow too well.  I so worried that he might have to be tube fed one day, pains me so much to see him suffering like this.  I am hoping to spend more time with him, after leaving GrabFood.  How to have both worlds without tearing myself apart...

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Date: 08/12/2019 (Sun)

Grab app was down during the lunch peak hour resulting in bad sales, so sad.

Brought home lots of food.

Ate around 4pm and I didn't feel hungry throughout the day.

PapaVoo was a great help today, he mopped and did the laundry.  So I was able to tidy up the house and did some ironing, the house was at least not chaotic any more.  My heart felt so much lighter.  Feeling happy for the first time since we came back from China.

Nothing is more important than health, nothing

Date: 01/12/2019 (Sun)

After work ended at Eunos, requested hubby to bring me to eat frog's leg porridge.  He brought me to Sinma.  We had tofu, the topping was minced pork with minced dried shrimps, very very nice.

This was forever good, $16 for 3 frogs.

I ate slowly, enjoyed every mouthful, thankful for the meal that brought a bit of happiness.

This was my last meal around 4pm before my surgery tmrw.

In the evening, I drank 2 litres of this.  It smells like leaked gas and probably this was how liquid gas tasted like.

Sibei 苦命 to go through this.  Went to the toilet, it was good detox.

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Date: 02/12/2019 (Mon)

4.30am, I drank 800ml of that medicine.  Went back to sleep, woke up at 6.30am and flushed out the 800ml.  Reached the hospital slightly late for 7.30am appointment.

I was given a bed, a set of pink top and skirt, and a needle on my hand, slight ouch.  I was pushed to the theater on this bed.  As I wasn't allowed to wear glasses or lens, everything was blurred in a good way.  One of the Dr said that she was going to inject some medicine through the needle on my hand.  I decided to close my eyes and let her do whatever she need....

The next moment I opened my eyes, I was back in the ward already, I had no idea what happened in between.  I thought I was supposed to be conscious lolxx...

No pain but just that I was weirdly tired as if I had mopped the house 10 times.  I was made to stay till my low blood bounce back.

Hubby wheeled me to get medicine, then we went home, everything was smooth sailing.

No appetite for lunch, slept throughout the afternoon.  Evening, had some porridge.  After which I thought I was well enough, so I started to do some housework.  Over estimated myself, felt faint followed by pain.  All he did was play with his ipad, the mess in the house had nothing to do with him.  He wasn't aware of what's happening.  Sometimes I imagine if I drop dead at home, he probably will never know until I decompose de.....

I showered quickly and hurried back to bed.  The pain got worst and I had to take panadol to get to sleep.  From then I know, I had no choice but be a pig and lie down on bed.

When can things ever gets better?  When?

I didn't share any of these in other social media sites.  I like this space here cos only a few of you reads this blog and the.... most of you don't know me in real person.  I don't want to let my friends know then I have to answer and thank them, very tiring de....  And yet at the same time, I want some one out there to know there's someone, an ordinary person, little old me, with constant contradictions in life, but continues to move forward trying to make a better living.